Long story very short, For weeks now I have been thinking that after 10 years of being alone and practicing buddhism, that it was high time I find a teacher. I found out that there was a teaching on the 37 practices of a Bodhisattva and immediately decided that I wanted to go (if I could). It turned out that there was still space available so I went to the teaching.
After the first day of teaching, I had an interview with Khentrul Lodrö Thayé Rinpoche (on saturday 9-10-11 in the united states) I explained my situation and asked him to be my teacher and he said YES. Then the next day (sunday, 9-11-11 in the united states) I finally took refuge in front of Khentrul Lodrö Thayé Rinpoche. I was given the name Jangsem Lhamo. And again I am so happy I had to tell someone who would actually listen to me and not roll their eyes at me. Now all I have to do is ask him for a practice (while at the same time implement what he taught about)